This morning I awoke... kinda groggily... Johnny cam in the room and said... "Well, there's still 15 minutes left" -Oh great, snooze time- :)
I closed my eyes and instantly, I was in this forest. Lush greenery all over... beautiful, amazing. I walked over to where I could hear a river flowing by... I could tell I wasn't alone. I got to the edge of the river and somehow I knew I was supposed to get to the other side; so I stood there feeling useless.
Jesus came up to my side and grabbed my hand; he squeezed it reassuringly as he looked into my eyes. He said, "Do you trust me?" I looked at him... puzzled. He took a step towards the water. -Still puzzled- "I trust you." I said with insecurity. He pulled me with him towards the water and said, "Do you trust me?" I stood there incredulously... -I think I know what's coming- "I ... I trust you." Butterflies filled my stomach.... -Yeah, I know what's coming- He said to me, "Then, come with me."
I walked over right besides where he was standing, as we stepped on the water... I was nervous, and I tried not to look down... it was impossible to look down when I was looking at his face.
He held my hand and talked to me... about intimate things. He told me so much, I wish I had recorded it... I realized then that we didn't cross the river... we were walking along with the flow... he kept talking to me, reassuring me, telling me things... I was scared cause I knew something was coming up... not only here and now but in my "real life"... Almost as if he read my mind, He reassured me He'd be there for me ... always... He spoke such sweet word... and again... I wish i could have recorded them.
We walked along the water to where we got to the edge of a waterfall. He turned to look intently in my eyes, "Do you trust me?" -It was impossible not to at this point- insecurely I said... "I trust you." And once more He said, "Do you trust me? even if what I ask of you seems like too much, even when you feel hopeless and trying times beat you, when your patience is tried and you're at the end of your rope... when the road gets dark ahead and you can't see a thing... Do you trust me?"
I bit my lip as I looked down the waterfall. In my mind I saw things I won't even try to remember; then all the past reassurance flooded my mind washing away all the doubts and fears. I looked into His eyes as I inwardly I let go of everything. My plans, my future, my present, my fears, my hopes and dreams... everything... except for Him. "I trust you."
He smiled and held me tight in his arms. As he let go of me He said, "Come with me." And He stepped out into thin air... -I couldn't help myself- "Seriously?" He smiled and held out His hand as he said, "You didn't actually think I'd let you fall... did you?"
A tingle of excitement filled the air. I took his hand and stepped into thin air as I looked into his face and said, "I trust you!"
