As of now...

It's insane! A barely 12:30 pm and I'm falling asleep on my keyboard. Yes, studying does tire you and a few days of the intense comeback to school and man I'm dying! I don't think I'm made for this. Everyone keeps asking me, "Oh you're almost done High School? Where you gonna go after that?" I love the looks on their faces when I say with stars in my eyes, "Africa." -confusion- and then recovery... "No, I meant what university or college? What career will you study?" I saw this coming... "Cooking!" -grins- This is where they go on about their kid and how he wants to studying cooking too and blah blah ... "Wait a minute... Africa?" yeah you're catching on....
Truly in life, I would love to be a lot of things and study well.. everyhting! I want to know it all! Sure, I could list you an ENORMOUS list of career that seem interesting, fun, helpful and well.. all that. Things like Architecture, Music, Medicine, Graphic design, Photography... Its all useful and its awesome to be a pro at any of those things... its just the time that one needs to invest that kills me... I'm not made for studying... I really am not...
As of now.... I'm going to nap...

"Oh, the Places You'll Actually Go!"

Birhtday thoughts....

I really should be sleeping... I have a long day tomorrow starting at 6, a dog sleep-walking at my feet and a super tired mind that really can't think... I'mma need a monster drink soon! :D... But i have decided to post anyway... cause I think I need to update... and I feel like writing things down... for the record...

I know this is the beginning of the rest of my life, and things will be as i make them... but today some things were just out of my control and that kinda frustrated me. I think I'm some sort of a control freak... or just really grouchy cos I slept 6 hours last night and I've only got 4 and a half to go on tonight... I really hope I don't faint! it should be a bad start to my year. Anyways.
I kinda feel like my time is running short... there's not enough.... I'm 18! I mean... yeah I really can't panic right now, in a state of half-asleep/half-dead.
In the last 2 days I... found out I'm terrified of big cities... and I panicked and I almost died ... and I learnt that some things I just should stop controlling and Let The Lord do his part... and trust him TRUST HIM!!! and just ... be patient and know he has his perfect timing. and one more thing... He knows best!!
Also I wanna thank all the wonderful people who made my birthday amazing... let me say that again... AMAZING!!! you guys totally rock!!!... You have no idea how many times I've been on the verge of tears for no reason today.... all of you made me smile, laugh and (yeah...) cry... in happiness tfor having you here for me! :D (and because you're all so wonderful!) I totally love you!!! like a million! and I'm soo thankful You're in my life!!
I better sleep now... time is going by fast and I won't be able to sleep at all
sincerely my 18th birthday.... BRING IT ON BABY!!!

Chris!

-Giggles- Would I sound madly in love and a bit biased if I post another post on this man? The man whom I love like no other and whom I have already posted about.... and I still want to post more :D
Well lucky for me, it's his birthday and there is noo way Im'ma gonna pass on this ooportunity to blog about him :D:D
So here's to Chris....

May all your dreams come true
and that sparkle stay in your eye
May you always remember I love you
here's to you, my only guy :)

May the Lord bless you even more
and your life be full of joy!
And that smile you always wore
never wear out of your face my dear boy!

But over all, may your love for him grow
and with each day that passes by
Through the high times ... and the low
May you never give up, and always give it another try.

..... well that was that .... a midnight/last moment composition :)
And may you always remeber, I love you!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

My Cervantino! pt. 2

DAy 2 ... resume:

Woke up early... I sunbathed, we had awesome inspiration in my girl's tent, Had breakfast and this awesome class, got ready to witness and went downtown free hugging and prayign with people. I helped at the prophecy tent and got a ton of coffe... went back to the campsite to dinner and had an awesome party where i saw sandy overly happy to meet keith... and danced with a few guys... did not do anything i wouldn't hve done :P drank a bit... and enjoyed myself... went inside the tent till 7 am...

Awesome hatties

with windy too!

I really don't know what's happening

Claraaa

Free Hugging

The prophecy tent!

with Windy!

Awesome faces

Tadaah!

Shhh

See I'm soo strong!

Aand (coincidentially) there was no pictures of the partay.... so I'll post my last post on Cervy laterz!

MY Cervantino! pt. 1

~You don't see life how it is... you see life how you are!----(i forgot who said that)
...That was a quote from the last (and my only) class they gave at the Cervantino Camp that really spoke to me. So as my opening, I will relate to you how My Cervantino was :D (ahem so you might see how I was...)
Firstly... Cervantino is a yearly arts festival held in honor of Miguel de Cervantes in the city of Guanajuato here in Mexico lasting a whole month. People from all over the world come to see it.
Secondly.... TFI members organized something very similar to a camp... we all took tents and camped out in a campground away from the city... arghh vut the crao righto? I'm sure you're all dying to see the pictures well ... I won't stop you!
day 1 for me resume:
I finished my tests, went to pack, travelled to Gto., We got lost downtown, met up with TFI members, did free hugging, went back to camp, stayed at the bonfire till 6 am, 1 hour and a half of cold, miserable, and painful sleeping... once the sun came up... I sunbathed....

Guanajuato

The tunnels

On the way to free hugging

Us girls

Kev and Sandy!

By the fire to keep warm

This is the first of 3 or more parts ok?! now bugger off  till I write the other ones! muahahha till then... see you later aligaters!

Angels!

There are many people who have left an impact in my life... some i've known for a lifetime... others I'm getting to know better... truth is, if only I could count up the people who I love and have been true angels in my life... this post would never end! so I'll mention a few... who in my opinion, deserve honorable mention today :)
(Not in order of importance....)

 And a few more..... I really didn't have pics of.... :D
guys, you've made a difference in my life ... and for that I thank you! :)

A sigh and a smile...

Ok right I know you missed me.... or didn't really it doesn't make much diff... I just feel like posting... you know late-night posts :) actually I will post parts of drafts and make one post... just so i can get over them :D too many drafts make me worry and I feel like I haven't posted in a while... they also leave the impression that i've still got to do this... Its good for me to try and spread the insanity a bit... helps to know i'm not the only crazy one in the planet :P
So let me do this....
I'm smiling and I know why... there is someone in my mind... apart from that well life has treated me fair... I really can't complain :) actually, I'm in utter bliss! .... OK.. It's sugar high :D:D... but I'm happy ok?! :D and my fingers just aren't enough to count those things making me happy right now :). No, there is nothing special going on... or anything out of the norm... I'm just "happy"... you know?
Things aren't exceptionally great or earier to bear but somehow I have certain assurance that everything will turn out right in the end... the best part is that things don't even have to make sense right now! :):)
I know I have taken ages to post somehting but hey... life's busy and I'm too... aside from that here's what i've been up to lately...

• After going to school for 2 weeks and missing out on a week of studies, I successfully passed my 3 tests last weekend!! :):) (please applaud... it was one of those tests i'd been having trouble with... 3 fails)
• A few days ago the phone stopped working... we called the phone company but it seems we'll be excomunicated for the weekend.... how grand :D
• My hair is now black... there's really no big difference to the dark brown it used to be... had a crazy moment and dyed it for the first time...
• I'm in love... and just the thoughtof him is enough to make me grin widely! :D
• I'm almost done with HS...  every day I'm a step closer to the end...
• I'm alive! I'm thankful I get another day, another chance to make a difference in someone else's life
• Um.... I'm leaving soon!! like really freakishly soon!! leaving where? um... that's confidential :D but i'll let you know later ;)
• I'm off to bed... ahh sheer bliss!! :)

 Righto... won't want to waste your time here for too long... I'll post soon ... i think :D