Sarah Kay performs "B"

I saw this vid while being bored and browsing... I loved it!! you have to see it :)


It speaks for itself.... Love, loved, loved it! :):)
Here's what:
Instead of mom, she’s going to call me “point b”
Because that way she knows that no matter what happens, A
t least she can always find her way to me.
& i’m going to paint the solar system on the back of her hands
so that she has to learn the entire universe before she can say
“oh, i know that like the back of my hand.”
she’s going to learn that this life will hit you, hard, in the face,
wait for you to get back up so it can kick you in the stomach,
but getting the wind knocked out of you is
the only way to remind your lungs how much they like the taste of air.
there is hurt, here, that cannot be fixed by band-aids or poetry,
so the first time she realizes that wonder woman isn’t coming,
i’ll make sure she knows she doesn’t have to wear the cape all by herself.
because no matter how wide you stretch your fingers
your hands will always be to small to catch all the pain you want to heal,
believe me, i’ve tried.
& “baby,” i’ll tell her “don’t keep your nose up in the air like that, i know that trick,
you’re just smelling for smoke so you can follow the trail back
to a burning house so you can find the boy who lost everything in the fire
to see if you can save him or else find the boy who lit the fire in the first place
to see if you can change him.”
but i know that she will anyway
so instead i’ll always keep an extra supply of chocolate & rain boats nearby
because there is no heartbreak that chocolate can’t fix.
okay, there’s a few heartbreaks chocolate can’t fix
but that’s what the rain boots are for
because rain will wash away everything if you let it.
i want her to see the world through the underside of a glass bottom boat,
to look through a magnifying glass at the galaxies that exist on the pin point of a human mind.
because that’s how my mom taught me,
that they’ll be days like this,
“they’ll be day’s like this my momma said.”
when you open your hands to catch
& end up with only blisters & bruises,
when you step out of the phone booth & try to fly
& the very people you want to save are the ones standing on your cape,
when your boots will fill with rain & you’ll be up to your knees in disappointment
& those are the very days you have all the more reason to say “thank you,”
because there is nothing more beautiful than the way
the ocean refuses to stop kissing the shoreline
no matter how many times it’s sent away.
you will put the “wind” in win some lose some,
you will put the “star” in starting over & over.
no matter how many land mines erupt in a minute
be sure your mind lands on the beauty of this funny place called life.
& yes, on a scale of one to over-trusting  
i am pretty fucking naive but i want her to know
that this world is made out of sugar.
it can crumble so easily but don’t be afraid to stick your tongue out & taste it.
“baby,” i’ll tell her “remember your mama is a worrier
but your papa is a warrior & you are the girl with small hands
& big eyes who never stops asking for more.”
remember that good things come in threes
& so do bad things & always apologize when you’ve done something wrong
but don’t ever apologize for the way your eyes refuse to stop shining.
your voice is small but don’t ever stop singing
& when they finally hand you heartbreak,
slip hatred & war under your doorstep
& hand you hand-outs on street corners of cynicism & defeat,
you tell them that they really ought to meet your mother.

On the net....

I surf when i don't have anythign else to do and i'm alone in a computer and there's no one to chat to... that's hardly the case lately cause I've been busy like heck! (btw did you know that last word is like a combination of fuck and hell? hmm... think twice before using it again!)Anyways! ... like i'm saying busy and with nothing to do? can you believe it?
There are days I spend in my bed daydreaming of a future that will never happen if i don't get off muy butt and start doing something about it! sheesh i shold talk to muyslef more often... get myself motivated and all ... :P
So on the net...  right where where we? yes I surf... sometimes... for pictures and items to post here... but you've all noticed i hardly post here anymore :( darn! but hey i will try to get my computer back into working?... maybe? Anyways the pictures i've been seeing are amazing... :) people say things and its like theyre reading my mind... :D:D so I'll post some here... for randomness sake :)

And you know who you are... :)

S' what you do to me... :D

And i agree :):)

I would be happy being an owl :D

So yeah its late and I.... must (at least try to get some sleep....) I'm starting school again tomorro... pray i can pass the tests cos.... they just hate me there :D and i hate them right back.... not good if i'm trying to make it thru HS phhtt... o well Cheerio... :) a hug and a kkiss ... I know I'll be dreaming of... someone...  or gazing at the full moon... you so gotta see it... its ama-zing :) a kiss and goodnite :)

26!

Dad, mom, this one's for you.

I know it takes a bit more then preserverance to hold on to each other for over a quarter of a century :) and I know raising 12 kids is NOT easy... especially 12 kids like us :D all that to say, guys you're amazing! I admire you! you're quite an example to follow.... :)

 And I have to say....
Happy Anniversary!! hope this years is awesome for both of you!! yeah I gotta have honorable mention here (round of applause :)

World Cup... ended!

Well Spain won... and then I died.
I have to say I'm kinda glad its over... and also to admit... i didn't watch one single full game... I just couldn't. Soccer games are always too much for me to watch... No wait... it wasn't the soccer in itself.. it was all those signs reading "South Africa" on them that I just couldn't stand seeing... Too much for my poor mind.

I will miss my dad saying "Hey you watching the game?" and me saying "No, i'm checking my mail" and then he saying " God, you're so out of it." Shake his head and leave.
I must, must say I was hoping, really hoping that Netherlands would win. why? Cause for one, their complete performance in the World Cup generally, was amazing! like perfect scores for every single game! and then BAM!... you know what happened? I was going for Netherlands and that's why they lost :P. Yeah if you want a team to win, please don't get me on their side cause... inevitably theyre gonna lose. it happened to Mexico, and Germany and now... Netherlands.... por guys really I shoud start going for the 'other guys' :P 
I guess its kinda late now its all over and things... well they should be back to normal. I go back to school and ... sob cause I fail all of my tests.... :D

Another Scout Story

Gosh this is kinda late.. like a week late but hey bear with me kay? it was fun!
Saturday morning I woke up... at 6!
Clara runs into my room.... "ESTEEEERRR!!! WAKE UP ITS ALREADY 8:30!!!
I stir ... annoyed... look at my watch... "Clara, GTH! its 6:40!" -goes back to sleep very annoyed-
I wake up at 7:30 then, I start getting dressed... By now you're wondering what in the world would I be doing up at 7:30 in a Saturday morning! or any other morning really....  But this morning we have a scout excursion going on! sigh we have to be at the park at 8:30 so we can like hitch a ride or sumthing.
so I woke up got half-dressed and realized... Craap!! My scout skirt is... GONE! :O!
So I look and look and don't find... Clara doesn't have one yet and Amy's is like about my size too so i go and i steal Amy's!!! :O! I felt kinda evil but hey she won't need it all day long will she? and she was sleeping and I didn't wanna wake her up :D:D
Sooo off we go after eating something quick and stealing away in the early morning ...
We got to the place and we talked, said the scout prayer.... I was supposed to say it but I still don't know it yet! :O! crap! so um someone else said it for me :D gosh I need to learn it... it says something like: "Lord...." and i forget what else, then, "Amen."
So off we go. We um... hiked up this mountain... 4 friggin hours!! 3 uphill and 1 downhill... :P ... I was breathless! but it was fun! I love plants and stuff and there were many trees (Well, everyone knows of my love for trees right?! :D).
We came back down and played some arm-wrenching games... gosh those scouts were about to rip my arms off :P and Clara... well she almost had hers torn too right then and there... :P but we stopped cos things were getting pretty hard on us newbies :D
Then we had to cook.... without utensils eek! so we did it took us AGES to start the fire cos it was all wet (it rained all night long the night before) but in the end  the food was yummy and we were happy.
The we went back home ... on the way we stopped at a place where i wasnted to buy corn on a cup but i got ripped off... and it was cold :(
Then we got back to the park where we were supposed to get to and saw my other team where i was invited to watrch a movie in a friend's house... but Clara couldn't come so i had to say no.
we walked all the way back to the house in the rain ... :D
Ok I admit it... I LOVED IT!! it was Friggin AWESOMEEE!! .... but i looked horrible :P here's the pics....

On top of spaghetti.... or the hill :D

HIiideaouss!!

Our salad!! :)

A bit more... decent :D

The sky is falling....

Strange.... just... really strange... :D

yeh... the whole group :D

So that's that ... the day after... my limbs were falling off... but it was worth it! :)

About time....

Ahh I owe it to you guys...  the explanaition... or excuse whatever.
So since getting here, we've been extra busy and that takes most of my time away. But I haven't posted a whole lot because of my computer. We've been having problems with the internet... Ok... so firstly we don't have our own internet line. We steal the neighbors internet line cause its for free :D but we're working on getting our own so things like these don't happen:
1. The browser... all of them are blocked directly from them... seems like they found out and blocked our browsers for a long time... I dunno but a miracle happened today and it kicked in :D PTL!
2. The messengers ... which were the only thing we could use here... stopped working this morning. Well the whole miracle happened and it works :D yay! TYJ!
But pray, pray for the internet to keep working fine so we can um... keep up the gud work :D  And that the whole phone line deal works out fine and we can keep the same phone number :)
Ok.... fine now for the grand finale.... a picture.... of our new house. :D well what it looked like when we rented it :)

 So whaddaya think.... nice eh?
Its 3 stories tall... like a building, its got a nice tiled patio (sorry fluffly), 3 rooms in the 3rd floor and 2 in the patio (which is on the 1st ... i guess), 5 bathrooms and a tiny kitcken... ahh TYJ! it fits our needs and its affordable :)
I haven't taken pictures of inside the house yet... cos i really dunno where to start ... but once I do I will post them kay?
Horray the line works!!!

Whayy?!

I... haven't posted... in.... a long time *hangs her head in shame* ... But.... but WHAYY!?
Well... I've been moving.... like moving houses. Sigh... yeah I saw this coming and i should have posted something in advance to let you know but ye I'm back now... I think :D
I.... haven't taken pictures :-S... But I will.. and I will post them as soon as I get them okeis? ...
I have to say its kinda weird like living in a diferent house but hey, changes are good ok?!  Things right now are.... strange but they'll get better. I hadn't taken a shower in.... I won't even mention it... and I was really stinky until this morning cos i took a shower :D
anyways... just to let you all know I'm back... and with full power!! hoho!! :D